Dear God

It has been the worst time of our lives, but we continue to be faithful in God's word and great promise.

Last year, I had lost my job while pregnant and our nestegg was used to keep our health insurance so we could at least have our baby.  Later, we find out that our older toddler is developmentally delayed.  We have been promised a diagnosis in 9 more months, though there has been references that he is autistic.  Yesterday, we have found out that his baby brother is also developmentally delayed and is also requiring treatment.  I have been looking for part time work to accomodate our child's 20 hours/week health appointments.  I have been blessed with work in babysitting and cleaning homes that allow me to bring my babies, however it is sporadic.  My poor husband has been working 70 hours/6 days per week.  Previous marriage have left us in debt and our credit ruined, but with our current financial priorities, we've defaulted on our counseling program and collection agencies call everyday .  We have just been given notice that our rental home will be sold, after years of never being late on our rent payment and tending to this house as if it was our own.

Thank you God for bringing peace in my heart for the times after my husband and I exasperate, fight and cry.  Thank you for the smiles my babies manage despite the gravity of our situation.  Thank you God, for reminding me that you only give us what we can handle.

Today I pray that you help me put the pieces back together of my broken heart.  I pray for your forgiveness, as I am in this moment weak, frightened and seeking desperately for help.  I pray that you will provide the direction to help us find a new home for our family.